Thursday, May 22, 2008
From ignorant, happier days.
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Recently online shopping became a little too stale and boring (!!!) so I reverted to surfing friendster and facebook again. And boy I realised half of the people in my friends list I don't exactly remember anymore D: And then the voyeurism keeps me occupied for a while before I get bored ALL OVER AGAIN. So I decide that the best solution is to actually GET OUT OF THE HOUSE on my off day and start shopping around for:
1. My vacation (so I will have nice frocks to wear and take photos in hahaha)
2. Valven's wedding (am I going to get a new dress????)
3. school (no la this is an excuse)
I'm such a lazy person yesternight before I slept I was thinking if I should leave a note saying I won't be having dinner at home so I could go out and shop around and you know agree to any spontaneous plans on the way but then I started having second thoughts about it main reason being I was lazy to climb out of my bed and write the note and after awhile before I could finally decide I actually fell asleep.
Infidelity drives me crazy hahaha thank goodness he's no longer important anymore. Brothers, yo. Thinking back on my frivolous secondary school days I swear I'll never ever be fickle-minded ever again. Not only because of what I've been through but also because of how people around me have been affected. Mmhmm.
Every now and then my GM keeps telling me at work 'Eh tonight we go Plush Bar and sing okay' I can't even differentiate whether it's just to suan me or a sincere invitation. Sometimes I get mildly tempted, because everything is okay already but I highly suspect it's the former la, afterall something very extremely embarrassing did happen there right. Everything started from there la aiyar. Alcohol does funny things to people, so NO.
Aside from the mindless happenings in my boring life, I've recently decided to join the alpha camp comm. To give myself another chance. It's going to be busy, I'm going to have a hard time balancing between work and play, but I know at least I'm going to have a very fulfilling year 1. I'm a little scared, though. But He will lead the way.
Okay I will bathe at 2 and then go out and (window)shop! Oh, so many things I covet but so little cash. I haven't gotten my taxi claims back >:(
fight evil...EVIL!
1:35 PM
Monday, May 19, 2008
Today is special because I went out (like most of my working Sundays) but no I didn't go with the usual buncha people and no I didn't go drinking. Instead I went only with Mingyi and another PP consultant to sing karaoke at party world, and then some more chilling out at hongkong cafe :D It's a nice change, I'm drinking bubble tea and eating chicken wings, and singing like mad for 3 hours non-stop instead of taking in liquor which makes me drunk and think about silly things.
Today is special because I spoke to two OUB members who were very pissed off with the way things turned out with the closure and everything but in the end they said even though the management sucks the staff is good, so that helped me gain my job satisfaction back.
Today is special because I can behave like nothing's ever happened and we're (almost) back to our fighting days but this time I can be more sure to treat him more like a brother than anything else (even though the little talk just now really made me think of alot of things I thought were already buried somewhere else zz).
Today is special because I bumped into Claudia Spencer Taufik at Raffles City which is so out of point but in any case it was still a very pleasant surprise because they are all so hilarious with a huge H. Haven't seen my classmates for so long much less schoolmates maybe it's time to meet up and ketchup really soon. Which reminds me of my pending Delifrance breakfast buffet with Yuzheng from the pre-As days D:
Today is special (in a bad way) because my mum stayed up to the point I got home which is really late and I'm just thankful enough that today I'm still sane (just a tad sleepy) and I didn't smell of liquor and/or smoke. Imagine if tonight was that night. I think I would've died, MADLY. Ha. The wonders of how things work.
So therefore I conclude I've ended my chaotic and unpleasant week with a very nice outing that I definitely look forward to making it a weekly ritual (which I suspect is what we're gna do) (: (: (: But tomorrow is the start of another week of war to fight D: I WILL SURVIVE. Till Thursday which will be a day of relaxation, and then Sunday, which will be Valven's wedding dinner.
fight evil...EVIL!
3:39 AM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Work is exhausting. My job satisfaction is gone ): You were part of it.
(: and D:
You fed me noodles.
I saw another girl sitting on your lap very easily and I hate to admit this but I feel a little like shit. Learning to get used to it though.
How come you don't sayang me anymore.
Because I want to muse openly I shall keep this blog private until further notice. Ha such little irony.
fight evil...EVIL!
12:21 AM
Friday, May 16, 2008
Heavy head, heavy heart. I'm so tired, I can't wait for my next off day. I can't wait to get away from 'thoughtful' reminders of the night from my AGM. I can't wait for things to be back to normal. I can't wait to free myself emotionally. I can't wait for Valven's wedding dinner. I can't wait for June to come ): I can't wait for my mini holiday, I can't wait to take many many pictures in summer frocks. I can't wait to finally leave TY, I can't wait to forget all the unwanted memories. I can't wait to lose more weight, I can't wait for my hair to grow longer.
I know we're all trying to act like nothing's happened. I know you're trying to treat me like how you used to. But it's just not the same anymore and everytime I hear your phone ring, or the mention of a waitress, or just seeing you engage in men talk with the rest in the office, I just feel a kind of disgust and disappointment all rolled into a ball. It's very sad that I'm witnessing it on someone I used to have a very good impression of, it makes me lose faith in alot of things, it makes me feel like nobody else in there is worth remembering anymore.
I never meant to type all these out but I reckon tonight I'm just a little too tired of everything.
fight evil...EVIL!
12:23 AM
Thursday, May 15, 2008
fight evil...EVIL!
11:06 AM
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Spoke to Mingyi on the phone and I feel alot better already, really. We were telling each other we must jiayou together, we must live better, and that the next time we go out it will not be with the same old people anymore nor will it be at Plush Bar anymore. That in itself is a great pity because I loved Plush Bar quite abit with its pretty decor but unfortunately it was also the same place I saw him walk out hand in hand with another girl who's definitely more attractive, skinnier, and has longer sleeker hair than my dry mane. It makes me feel very very inadequate in terms of EVERYTHING and so I'm determined to bring my weight down down down down to get rid of the inadequacy (if there's such a word). Issues, issues. Having said that I feel extremely fat today because I allowed myself to snack at midnight. But because today is my off day I forgive myself! Okay this is insane I'm already blogging rubbish. Post-trauma recovery is like that, I reckon.
fight evil...EVIL!
1:17 AM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
傻瓜
词/温岚 曲/吴克群
其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯得多
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜
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On a brighter note, happy birthday to my dearest twangsie (:
fight evil...EVIL!
10:34 AM
Monday, May 12, 2008
Seeing him walk away with another girl in his hands hurt more than it should. Maybe I should quit soon. Then perhaps I'll feel better.
fight evil...EVIL!
1:19 AM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
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All's good, I'm good. Now I'm just looking forward to more outings with my bestfriend @ work, searching for a nice dress for Valven's wedding dinner, taking leave from work to go on a holiday, and anticipating my FOC.
fight evil...EVIL!
9:01 AM
Thursday, May 8, 2008
I'm nursing a bit of a heartbreak :'(
fight evil...EVIL!
12:28 AM
Sunday, May 4, 2008
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Interest, or pragmatism?
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To-do:
1. Gym/yoga
2. Buy the 2 for $20 tees at far east
3. Eat wisely!!
fight evil...EVIL!
10:53 PM
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Went for supper buffet at Carousel, so now I'm satiated. Feel like puking. I look like a bald chicken now because I went to thin my already short hair D: Tomorrow I'm going to attend the wedding dinner of the daughter of my dad's colleague together with my parents! More food galoreeeeeee (and fats).
Note to self: Must gym tomorrow, no more excuses!
I want to buy the 2 for $20 tees at far east, damn cute can.
fight evil...EVIL!
2:17 AM
Thursday, May 1, 2008
that probably don't mean a thing.
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nus fass or ntu comms?
fight evil...EVIL!
2:45 AM
From ignorant, happier days.
Went for supper buffet at Carousel, so now I'm satiated. Feel like puking. I look like a bald chicken now because I went to thin my already short hair D: Tomorrow I'm going to attend the wedding dinner of the daughter of my dad's colleague together with my parents! More food galoreeeeeee (and fats).